LOVE'S A BITCH!!!

 If we all got paid for having our hearts broken, some of us might be millionaires. The heart wouldn't be anything coz it would eventually become numb...

To start of this blog i decide to write about love, yeah i know what youz thinking...cliche!!!
well...i still insist, besides it won't hurt to read.
LOVE'S A BITCH!! i say this not because i don't believe in it or coz I've never experienced the good side of it, but because am addicted to the bitch and i love the way she takes over me. she gives me a feeling similar to what i feel when am high on weed...she's intoxicating!!
Love made me settle, committing my body, soul & mind on him,dreaming of him, writing letters to him(I'll reveal them in my future posts), denying my body satisfaction of the flesh from others. Ce'cile (byaad girl) mentioned in her song "anything" that when a girl loves a man,she do anything anything to make him feel right... and anything is what i did,what i got in return i mistook it for love yet it was gratitude. gratitude because he was never loved like i loved him, he enjoyed the feeling of being loved buh never really loved back...at least not how i loved him.
I was blind to see the signs,love didn't want me to wake up from her romantic illusions, i didn't notice that each day i grew in love with him, i was suffocating him! Love didn't grow in him instead it left his heart, he wished we never took that step,the one that makes lovers out of friends...every time we made love he felt guilty, he told me he regrets.
my heart is  wounded, it bleeds every time i hear his voice, repeating to me those words "maybe this was a mistake!" he regrets taking a different lane...am glad we did, he regrets making love to me...am glad he did, he feels like he betrayed my love...now i feel the same way.
am hurt! it kills me to forfeit my place in his life... but what choice do i have? why force someone to love me in a way he doesn't? why hold on to something that's done with?
Love is a BITCH, this ain't the first time she's done this to me... Am living with a broken heart!!
If we got paid for having our hearts broken, some of us would be millionaires. the heart wouldn't be anything coz it's become numb, in my case i wish i could be refunded the time & tears i wasted because of love, most of all i wish my weak heart could stop loving him coz am in pain!!